Random Ramblings.

I'm thinking that I should quit taking relationship advice from the articles that pop up on my Hotmail home page...yeah, this would be a great idea. I've also decided that I need to stop watching the Notebook and thinking "It happened for them! Why not me?"
I also need to stop listening to songs by beautiful male artists who are adorable and thinking "There has to be more of them!" since essentially, I think that a lot of male song writers are just big egotistical jerks anyway. To tell you the truth, so are women song writers. Gosh, I'm such an egotistical jerk. My songs aren't even that good. I'm not really all that great at anything. I'm mediocre at pretty much everything I do. It's a little depressing. Oh well. Who cares? Not me.
I should also be finishing an outline for speech but I think I'm just going to go home tomorrow morning and yeah do it there. So woo hoo for me.
I'm also thinking that I really can't wait to be done at COD. I'm even starting to SMELL like it there.
I should probably also learn how to go to bed on time.
And to stop thinking that I'm rich and spending like, a hundred dollars in one weekend.

I've something. I sincerely think that some people are just ugly. I also think that some people are gorgeous. I also think that some people COULD be gorgeous, but they're either not trying, or trying to hard. But the point is, there are just some people who are blatantly ugly, and there's really no way that I can reason it to make them prettier. Braces? Nope. Different hair-cut? Nope. Different clothes? Probably not. Nose job? Nah. They would need to have their entire face reworked. I'm really sorry if this makes me mean. I'm not talking about anyone in particular. I'm just saying, sometimes I see people at school, and I'm just completely repulsed by them.
So here's where the conception of me that people have that I'm just a nice person. I'm really not. I get annoyed really easily. I think really horrible mean thoughts that I would never say out loud, but would probably bust out laughing if I did say them out loud. Sometimes I can't stop smirking because the things I think are just so mean. I'm a mean person. So for those of you think I'm "Nice" or "Sweet"
You're wrong. I'm not. I'm mean. I'm also controlling, bossy, and I'm an agenda pusher, and if you aren't willing to hop onto the band wagon, then screw you. I've been told to my face that I'm crazy. The truth is, I kind of am. I am semi-crazy. I also have this suspicion that I have this strange genetic dysfunction that causes guys to be extremely interested in me, like, transfixed, like, can't go a day without talking to me kind of interested when they first meet me. They'd like, kiss the ground I walk on. But then, after a few weeks, they dump me. Weird? Yes. Weird.
Maybe it just means that I'm not very complex at face value.
It's pretty smart though. You need to know what you're getting into when you want to date me. Like I said. I'm mean. :)

Ok. Now I need to go to bed.

Good-night