ARGH

I just feel the need to justify myself here.

I hate Moody Bible Institute. Sorry, but I do. I wouldn't go there for the life of me. I know I spent the majority of my high school years claiming that it was the only college I'd go to, but I believe I've had a change of heart...

Believe it or not, Moody is not the most holy bible college in the world, and attending Moody does not automatically make you the holiest person in the world. Seriously, I know a lot of screw ups who go to Moody...in fact pretty much everyone who goes to Moody is a screw up, and they should know it if they actually took the theology they're learning seriously...since as Christians we believe that ALL have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God...(try reading Romans, please).

Seriously. I don't want to hear about how many people YOU'VE lead to Christ, since you haven't lead them to Christ, Jesus lead them to Himself - you were just a vessel in the process. You don't know how many seeds have been planted, you don't know how many people have watered those seeds, and spread sunshine and weeded the soil so those seeds could grow...maybe you should stop to think that you were simply the one who harvested it. I personally think that this is truly the work of God, not man. I'm humbled when God gives me the opportunity to lead someone to Christ, because it's just another reminder of how sinful and disgusting I am, and how gracious and loving, and merciful God is. I also do not keep track.
Don't get me wrong - I'm the first one to admit that I struggle with pride. It's really hard for me to keep myself in check, but I really believe it's one of the most important things to do with your faith. Pride is distructive, it inflates you to the point where there's no where else to go but down. Then, you self-destruct, you get torn into a thousand little peices. Pride is a horrible, awful thing to have. And here's the thing, when you stand before the gates of heaven, and Jesus asks you "Why should I let you in here?" or "What have you done" saying "I lead 108 people to Christ!" is not going to cut it. It's nothing that YOU have done. It's everything that Jesus has done that grants you merit in the Kingdom of Heaven. And it's only by God's infinite mercy that you are even allowed to pass through the gates into paradise with Jesus. You are granted community and fellowship with Jesus and fellow believers because you professed with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that He rose from the dead - not because you lead 108 people to Christ.

And not by any means am I saying you shouldn't witness and allow the Holy Spirit to overcome you and work through you - I'm not saying that at all, I'm simply saying to count it an enormous privilege - a blessing that Christ gives you...that through the spirit's power, you've been saved, and through the spirit's power, God is using you to save others. I'm just extremely irritated by people who think it gives them any merit whatsoever to proclaim to the entire world how many people they've lead to Christ. You can take your little number elsewhere.

So, I guess a conclusion to this total rant of a post is that I actually don't hate Moody, I just hate the whole elite attitude some of Moody's students and faculty carry. In fact, I hate the whole elite attitude that a lot of Christian college's students and faculty carry *coughwheatoncough*.
I wish we could just be happy with Christ's salvation, and know that there is no one better than the other.

I chose not to go to Moody because it's not the right school for me. Moody was something in my past - not something in my future. I know a lot of people with truly golden and pure, and Christ centered hearts who graduated from Moody. I don't hate the whole institution in general, again, I hate the "I got into Moody Bible Institute" attitude. Listen, I got into Moody, too, but I turned it down. Why?

I'm a woman. I'm a leader. Those two things don't mix at Moody.

Thank you, and good-night.